Opportunity?!

Several months ago I began praying for an opportunity to do more in the ministry. Maybe something full time or part time, but some kind of working, life changing ministry where I could be used to minister and change lives. I considered starting men's organizations or a outreach to young married couples, anything that would give me an opportunity to preach, teach, and give me some exposure( I say ever so humbly). I have been frustrated with my responsibilities @ church because I feel that just about anyone could do what I have been doing and I can do much better than that. Put me out front, let others see what I can do (I can't believe how arrogant and egotistical I have become in my own mind).
So last weekend in my praying and wallowing in self-pity I decided(yeah, like it was me) that I needed to focus and pray more fervently about what direction the Lord was going to lead me in. I concluded that I needed to give up some things this week and focus on my prayer needs/wants.(I always tell the youth that God is not our cosmic Santa Claus ) This week I have not listened to the Radio @ work or while I have been driving (a major accomplishment) neither have I watched television. My time has been spent praying, reading and thinking about what direction I need to go in. (I'm never happy , always looking for direction)
Miraculously( not really, it was just God being God)I was given an answer!!! I know which way I'm headed. I have been given the ministry that I have been praying for. One that will allow me to minister to others, one that will give me an opportunity to teach/preach and change lives. I am so excited that I can hardly stand it!
In my time of fasting this week it has come to me. The opportunity that I have been praying for, has been sitting in my lap for the past 2 years. What!?! Yes, I have been blessed with an opportunity to change lives and minister. I am not bound by anything and can take this ministry as far as the Lord wants me to take it. I can not believe how darkened my eyes have been to the opportunity, waiting for me to grab hold of it and let the Lord use me to grow both the ministry as well as myself.
Sometimes I can't believe how ignorant I can be. I haven't just been teaching Sunday School and Wednesday nights for the past two years. I have been laying foundations for a ministry that was waiting for it's Earthly leader to wake up and smell the coffee(Preferably a dark roast breakfast blend).

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